Fasting: Not Just for God but also Self

It has been a couple weeks since my last post, as I have not felt compelled to express my thoughts. The last month has brought into me a feeling of emptiness, a pain I cannot describe. Something I feel and see in the spiritual but not in the physical. Logically I try to shut out input that makes no sense for that is what I have been programmed to do by physical beings known as humans. Unfortunately that is not enough for me, as I have discovered many half truths, untruths, conspiracies and ideologies; what is perceived as real does not exist.

In preparation for Ramadan this week, I have been cleansing my body and mind for the past four days. During Ramadan (very simply put) one cannot eat or drink during daylight hours. August 12 I began the cleansing process by eating only whole grain rice and bread as well as drinking water. I was then lead to eat soup and salad, now i'm controlling my food intake altogether. That was the hardest experience i've encountered in the spiritual realm. It left me dazed and weak, unclear and empty. Everyone could feel my pain, but no one understands; not even me. All I know is for me this fast is more than just doing what is in style at the moment, or some way of creating physical chaos in a world of spiritual confusion. For me this fast is about a recovery from the hurt and pain endured throughout many lifetimes. It is about connecting to a higher source within to unlock truth.

I realized recently that my physical existence has not been operating in truth. What I see is not only what i'm getting, but also what i'm not getting. I do not like maneuvering in a world full of half truths and disconnections, for in order to receive complete truth we have to be connected. Everything and Everyone, we are all part of a whole which equals to the one: God, Allah, Christ, Buddha whatever you choose to address our greatest father; I call it the ALL-Ah (father of all): Anu.

So in this journey I will attempt to find that which I have lost; my soul, my spirit, my energy, my connection and my self. I hope to be successful this time, I hope to come into a completion from which I can be satisfied this time, I hope I will find ALL of me this time.

Peace, Love and Bliss

Angel-Ah

The Miss-Education of Autism

This morning I received an email containing an article from a very inspiring George Mason University Economist. In his essay entitled Chronicle of Higher Education, Tyler Cowen, discusses how Autism should be looked upon as an educational benefit. In the realm of cognitive abilities, children with Autism have far surpassed many so called non autistic students. Cowen lists many of the cognitive functioning capabilities that are often favored when applied by those individuals who are not considered developmentally disabled.

“…some key cognitive features of autism are the ability, and desire, to process lots of information across widely different scales, from tiny details to overarching structures; focus and the mental ordering of that information; a relatively high degree of scientific objectivity; and the presence of some highly specialized cognitive strengths.”

If we removed the Autism label, these abilities would appear extraordinary and show signs of future success especially in that of the analytical, scientific realm. Unfortunately all too many times, when a label is assigned to a person, society begins to only look at their inability or lack of functioning. We as human beings begin to immediately attempt to alter or restructure the person into our limited view of a perfect individual.

What we fail to realize is that every being is perfect upon this Earth because that is how we are designed. Our differences in color, speech, though patterns, movements and development is to increase a greater appreciation and understanding of ALL. For only if we focus on the beauty that everyone and everything has to offer than we can truly grow as a collective manifesting greatness.

Peace, Love and Bliss

Angel-Ah